My new favorite song.

Published in: on July 27, 2007 at 12:58 pm  Comments (3)  

I guess I am kind after all.

I got proof. Yesterday I got the following note at work:

Thank you for your kindness at the spa. You have received 2 Karma point(s) and have been entered into the monthly spa employee raffle.

Boring, I know. But I’ve had blogger’s block again. And that especially sucks because my last post was so depressing. I just want to clarify that I feel like that once in a while, not always, and actually took that from a journal entry made several months ago. I happened upon it and decided to post it. I’m glad I did because it made me feel lighter. It was somewhat liberating to let Crazy out for a minute.

Published in: on July 25, 2007 at 10:43 pm  Comments (1)  

Don’t read this if you wanted to be amused.

Although the song “How to Save a Life” by the Fray is grossly over-played, I have to admit that it’s brought a tear to my eye more than once. One of the twenty-gazillion times I heard it, it made me think of another song that I heard last summer. I ended up at a country concert (Gretchen Wilson) which didn’t turn out to be that bad. In fact, I thought she was really good. There were two opening acts and one of them, this guy who looked like he was 12, but with an eerily deep, unfitting-for-his-stature voice, sang another song that touched me to the core. I only remember the line “how do you get that lonely and no one know?” I think it touched me because I knew. I wanted to answer back.

It’s not about getting that lonely. It’s about the inescapable feeling that you will always be that lonely. It’s about not being able to see anything else because that’s all you’ve ever known. It’s not about being lonely, but living with your demons. It’s not about being lonely, but being surrounded by people who love you, but only wanting ONE. Then it’s about finding and losing him over and over, or never having him to begin with. It’s about one who breathes new life into you and just when you feel like you have a new best friend, you come to realize it’s not that way at all. And you wonder if it’s something you did or didn’t do. It’s knowing that the demons are what keep you from being confident enough, smart enough, funny enough, kind enough, loving enough, disciplined enough, strong enough, worthwhile enough, attractive enough, or beautiful enough to be loved…by just ONE.

i would go shopping and still
it would not come
i’d leave the country and still
it would not come
i would scream and rebel still
it would not come
i would stuff my face and still
it would not come
i’d be productive and still it would not come
i’d be celebrated still it would not come
i’d be the hero and still it would not come
i’d renunciate and still it would not come

-Alanis Morrissette

Then you do the hokey-pokey and you turn yourself around. That’s what it’s all about.

Published in: on July 20, 2007 at 12:59 pm  Comments (6)  

Massage and pole dancing: secrets to a (really) happy life.

A guest sent an email to the general email address at my work addressed to a specific employee. I took out some details just in case. I didn’t know Salt Lake/Park City was a world. But whatever. I also think it’s interesting that her ellipses are either 2 or 4 periods, but never 3. Just enjoy this crazy email.

Good morning [name withheld]..

It’s a beautiful day in the neighborhood here in [withheld]. I wanted to take the time to thank you for that soothing body exfoliation, wrap, sauna, and massage a couple of weeks ago. You watched out for my interests and I enjoyed our conversations. Thank you for our compliment as well. I didn’t want to take you back with my exercise regime of pole dancing, but it, of all my workouts in the past, has helped me stretch wider, feel deeper, curve richer and own my own body purely. It helps me wake up in the morning and puts me to sleep at night. I wish they offered it in your world of Salt Lake/Park City.

C’est la vie

But.when I do come back to the spa, I will ask for you personally..only this time take you up on you offer of the 2-hr. massage….

a la belle etoile….

[name withheld]

Published in: on July 18, 2007 at 1:36 pm  Comments (6)  

Music Monday

From the Garfield spiral notebook:

#34 “Good Songs”

There are a lot of good songs that I like. I like “The Greatest Love of All” by Whitney Houston. I like “Addicted 2 Love” by Robert Palmer. I love Robert Palmer and George Michael.

Published in: on July 16, 2007 at 5:42 pm  Comments (4)  

In the penith

So I was chillin’ at Becky’s the other night when she showed me this…

On a side note, I got an Evite to a party. I bet someone thought that “evite” was a clever thing to call an electronic invitation, but in French, evite means avoid. I accepted anyway.

Published in: on July 15, 2007 at 1:41 pm  Comments (4)  

Garfield spiral notebook – 1985-86

Entry #3: “Boys”

I am writing about boys because boys are one thing that I can’t live without. There are a lot of kinds of guys. There are 3 kinds that I like: cute, nice, my age. The guys that I like names are Kevin, Jamie, Jeff, Jeff, Tommy and Ricky. That last two are twins. I don’t know what I would do without guys (males).

Entry #22 “Most valued possession”

My most valued possession is my purse. If there was a fire in the house the first thing I would grab was my purse, second my stuffed animals and Cabbage Patch Kids.

Entry #23 “Three qualities in boyfriends”

#1 this person must have good looks
#2 this person must like me
#3 this person should have something in common w/me

Published in: on July 12, 2007 at 12:49 pm  Comments (11)  

Assorted Details

Ok. Ok, so Bethany and I really don’t have that much in common. I was lazy and just copied and pasted her responses. I’ve never been to Tanzania. Here’s the real me. Oh, and happy birthday, Bethany. 🙂

Four Jobs I’ve held:
1. Pre-school teacher
2. Sandwich Artist
3. French tutor
4. Esthetician Extraordinaire

Movies I can (and do) watch over and over:
1. Orange County
2. Lord of the Rings (I’m counting all three as one)
3. The Sound of Music
4. O Brother, Where Art Thou?

Places I’ve lived:
1. Salt Lake City, UT
2. Senden, Germany (I lived in one of those tall apartment buildings on the right – #8)
3. Grenoble, France
4. Alexandria, VA

T.V. Shows I enjoy:
(I don’t really watch much these days, but sometimes I watch)
1. American Idol
2. Judge Judy and Judge Joe Brown
3. the news
4. and, of course, The Simpsons (last but not least)

Places I have been on vacations to:
1. Pisa, Italy
2. Disneyland
3. Garmisch, Germany
4. the Canadian Rockies

Favorite foods:
1. avocados
2. salad
3. pizza
4. Tropical Dots

Websites I visit:

Places I’d rather be right now:
1. at the pool
2. hiking
3. watching the new Harry Potter
4. Asheville, NC

Now I’m supposed to tag people: um, Wendi, Emily, Erin and Richard.

Published in: on July 11, 2007 at 11:05 am  Comments (3)  

You don’t know me.

I got tagged to fill out this questionnaire by Laurie.

Four Jobs I’ve held:
1. Dishwasher for the BYU Canon Dining Center during EFY
2. Chick-Fil-A cashier
3. Telemarketer (It’s true. But I only worked inbound calls. When we switched to outbound, I quit. I met our friend Sarah working there. We used to belt Celine Dion at the top of our lungs in between calls. We had the best times.)
4. Tanning Salon (That explains why I’m only 28 with crow’s feet. I think they’re sexy, but I’m crossing my fingers they won’t be accompanied by skin cancer.)

Movies I can watch over and over:
1. The Three Amigos
2. It’s A Wonderful Life (I married George Bailey!)
3. School of Rock
4. Calamity Jane

Places I’ve lived:
1. Orem, UT
2. American Fork, UT
3. Provo, UT
4. Sacramento, CA (I finally branched out a bit.)

T.V. Shows I enjoy:
1. Heroes
2. So You Think You Can Dance
3. American Idol (Yes, I admit it.)
4. Lost (Yes, I admit that too.)

Places I have been on vacations to:
1. Hawaii
2. Disneyworld
3. Tanzania, Africa (Amazing. Amazing, amazing, amazing.)
4. And, well… I guess this one’s yet to be determined. No, wait. I guess we vacation in Utah now that we’re not living there. Right?

Favorite foods:
1. This has
2. to be
3. a trick
4. question.

Websites I visit:
1. Most of them are to the left of our blog.
2. Babies R Us
3. Wikipedia
4. Google (Whenever Hailey has a question about something we don’t know, we look it up. Quite handy, really.)

Places I’d rather be right now:
1. In bed, asleep
2. In the tub, asleep
3. In the shower (Though, not asleep. That’s dangerous.)
4. Europe.

I’m lazy and Bethany and I just happen to have a lot in common (in case it looks like I borrowed her answers).

Published in: on July 10, 2007 at 9:06 am  Comments (7)  

Material Girl.

As I mentioned before, I got a new car. I wish it was because I had a few extra bucks lying around and decided to get one, but it wasn’t. I kinda had to. So it’s not brand new or anything. It’s pretty simple, but nice. It gets me to work and will maybe take me on some road trips in the near future. As requested, here’s a picture.


And while we’re on the subject…the other night as I was conversing with some friends, the irrational fear I used to have the greater Los Angeles area came up. I was fruitlessly trying to explain why it gave me the creeps, stating how materialistic it was, which really didn’t describe my perception of LA very well at all, leaving them with an inaccurate explanation. Finally, I gave up trying to express myself. In an effort to change the subject, I turned to my friend, Mike, who has expressed his disgust at the trend of wearing giant sunglasses (which I love, but mine, unfortunately, broke) and asked if he approved of the pair I was currently wearing (that I adopted when someone never claimed them from the lost & found at work). “They’re Gucci,” I added.



Published in: on July 5, 2007 at 12:35 pm  Comments (8)